Life

Ever have those moments that you just want to curl up into a ball and cry for hour’s non-stop just about nothing? Well I feel like that most times because I just feel like I’m nothing to anyone and I’m no on this planet for nothing like that people all they do is drag me down when I get that feeling it’s like when that happens they just kick me when I’m down and proceed to beat to hell.

                I feel like that most of the time when I am at school all it is, is a fake smile I put on to make everyone else happy and make them feel better. Felling down like everything is a big shadow and like nothing ever does the way you want it to. You’re in a deep hole that you can’t seem to reach that edge that is just do close to your fingertips, but yet just far enough you can’t grasp the soft dirt of the edge of the hole.

                Every day is just another challenge for me that I have to face all the time whether it’s a small challenge or a big challenge it don’t matter it’s something that I deal with. When I wake up in the morning most people are wondering what they will wear when in my head I’m wondering what will the day bring for challenges for me today.

                This school year has been the biggest challenge yet it was suppose too be a great year this year you know go through senior year in high school my hope was to graduate with flying colors but yet that won’t happen I’m sure of it, it will be another year that I cut it way to close and I don’t want to cut it to close I hate being of risk of not graduating I don’t but it just seems like I can’t get away from it my grades prove that I am at so much risk of not graduating school.