Choices you make makes an impact on your life

Life’s choices they will come back to haunt you in the long run if you don’t make the right choices. But if you make the right choices in your life good things will go your way and if you make the best of those good things life will come easy, but if you like me and you take the good things and make them into complicated as they can be.

                If I can give advice to not just anyone in particular but everyone is that don’t take everything for granite cherish the life you have because when it’s that time for you to go six feet under the ground that’s it, that’s the last of you I mean all you will be is just a memory in every loved ones hearts. If there is something that I have learned about life is that nothing comes easy and that you have to work your ass off to have good things in life. As well as take every moment with your loved ones you have left to tell them you love them more than anything and make sure they know it.

                Even when you’re in school and there are teacher willing to help you get your work done don’t be like me and not take the help when it was offered to me. Now I’m a senior in high school and at risk of not graduating because when I didn’t know what was going on or don’t understand it I don’t ask for help because I don’t want to be made fun of because of me not comprehending what is going on with English and history I just don’t peak an interest in either of those classes. Then I get to failing and then I just keep getting further and further behind in my work and then I just dig myself out of the whole that I’m in I just want to graduate this year to prove everyone wrong that don’t think I will graduate and walk across that stage and get my diploma.

Life

Ever have those moments that you just want to curl up into a ball and cry for hour’s non-stop just about nothing? Well I feel like that most times because I just feel like I’m nothing to anyone and I’m no on this planet for nothing like that people all they do is drag me down when I get that feeling it’s like when that happens they just kick me when I’m down and proceed to beat to hell.

                I feel like that most of the time when I am at school all it is, is a fake smile I put on to make everyone else happy and make them feel better. Felling down like everything is a big shadow and like nothing ever does the way you want it to. You’re in a deep hole that you can’t seem to reach that edge that is just do close to your fingertips, but yet just far enough you can’t grasp the soft dirt of the edge of the hole.

                Every day is just another challenge for me that I have to face all the time whether it’s a small challenge or a big challenge it don’t matter it’s something that I deal with. When I wake up in the morning most people are wondering what they will wear when in my head I’m wondering what will the day bring for challenges for me today.

                This school year has been the biggest challenge yet it was suppose too be a great year this year you know go through senior year in high school my hope was to graduate with flying colors but yet that won’t happen I’m sure of it, it will be another year that I cut it way to close and I don’t want to cut it to close I hate being of risk of not graduating I don’t but it just seems like I can’t get away from it my grades prove that I am at so much risk of not graduating school.

Always in my Heart

The one person that I love most in this world has always been there for me always helped me through the good times and the bad. She wasn’t very old at all either she was only 62 when she passed away two years ago she was very important to me there are three people important to me my amazing mother that has been my guardian for the pasted like seven years while my dad wasn’t then there is my grandmother that I have lived with for four summers in a row. Then there is all of my true friends that have been there for me.

           

My grandmother was one of the people that helped me though my problems and always told me that everything will be okay. I love her to pieces. I wish I could build a time machine if it was possible so I could go back two years ago all I wanted to do was say that I’m sorry for everything I did and how much I wish I could take it all back. If I would have known that this would have been the last time I saw her I would tell her that I love her so much and I don’t want you to leave gram please I would do anything to make you better.

But I wasn't there with her I was at my house with my dog watching him because he couldn't go on a plane with my mom and Steve when they flew to Florida to stay with my grandmother then on their way home gram and my grandfather were driving and she told him to drive to the closest hospital. That’s where she stayed my mother and Steve were notified that she was in a hospital in Virginia and it was three in the morning so I was tired and I fell back asleep with Richter at my feet. I have only seen my mother cry maybe five times in my whole life. That was one time that I held my mom so tight and told her that I’m there for her no matter what and that I loved her so much. :’(

               

My mom came back home the next day and told me that gram died with a smile on her face. It sucks because she died on my mothers birthday:’(